A new era

"I promise to love you, to give you a good life and to keep you happy, forever" Like a hand-crafted gift god had customized for me, everything just made sense with him. It was smooth sailing from day one. Not a hiccup or a hurdle in the way. Whatever attempted to be one was so quickly resolved, I barely felt it was an issue anyway. "This is what dreams are made of" I said to myself far too often. I suppressed my joy so I don't jinx anything because God knows with my shit luck, ANYTHING can happen.  Almost a decade after the filthiest ugliest divorce, I believed in love again. I believed in second chances. I believed in happiness. Yes, key word, happy. Overjoyed. Over the moon. Sky high. Life is beautiful again, or as is now said my life was life-ing. "I promise to love you, to give you a good life and to keep you happy, forever" I couldn't stop thanking God, day and night for this miracle that has landed on me. I appreciated everything that was hap...

Back again to our topic on transition and the interesting times this brings. I thought completing the major events or processes were going to be the most challenging part during this period, but the universe has a curveball aimed right at me and it has hit me straight on my forehead.  Never have I experienced my body reacting to internal, mental and emotional instability. I honestly believed that I was ok and that everything was fine until my body decided to react otherwise. Problem is, there was nothing I could do about it apart from "relax" and "try not to think about it".  I had to learn, the hard way, how the anatomy of a human being works. I really had endured days of anxiety, physical body pain and extreme mental stress for me to understand that our bodies tell us EVERYTHING we need to know, we just need to pay attention. This was a major change in my life, how could I solely rely on how I was feeling on the outside which was extreme happiness by the way. Ther...